5 years ago I wrote a post about how the world of 15 years ago, the age of indifference and ‘meh’ had been replaced by outrage, fury and, well, more outrage. I referred to a review of journalist Jon Ronson’s book about social media shaming, which discussed
…a scuttling crowd of people who want nothing more in life than to be offended. Offence, for this lot, is not a straightforward emotional response, instinctive and heartfelt. It’s a choice, something they actively seek.
Rachel Cooke, The Observer, 15th March 2015
Well, dear reader, this past weekend I encountered part of the scuttling crowd on Twitter, and it wasn’t pretty. The algorithm decided to show me a post from Kirstie Allsopp in which I thought she was actually trying to Do The Right Thing rather than shouting her mouth off. There’s quite a bit of nuance here, perhaps the sort that could get her abused by both sides, but I was on board. She wants to elevate the conversation away from different groups attacking each other.
So like a naive liberal lunatic I chipped in. Thinking of David Mitchell’s line about everyone stepping up to make a difference because “what is an ocean if not a multitude of drops?”. I was trying to illustrate the point that many trans- people are just trying to live their life, they want to be happy, they don’t want to hurt anyone. I deliberately made it only about our family to try an humanise it, but also to not claim I’m speaking universally, although I accept that “the phrase”utterly lacking empathy” probably didn’t help…
Anyway, I posted that on Thursday evening, which led to an interesting set of notifications by Friday morning, and indeed over the weekend. Here’s a pretty representative sample…
It was a relatively small group who responded, but they were tenacious. A couple were more ‘reasonable’ in that they did agree to disagree with our choices, and had the grace to wish us well, and hoped we would all be OK (even though they kind of doubted it). But the majority were not like that. I’d characterise them in three ways.
They’re right and everyone else is wrong.
They truly live in a binary world, and deny the entire concept that a person could be ‘Trans’. Every aspect of Trans is false, dangerous, a scam, a lie, evil. They’re not really Trans-phobic, because in their world it is simply impossible that Trans people can exist. Any so-called science that affirms, accepts or even acknowledges it is wrong and bogus. Their feeds and posts often include the same images and links as ‘evidence’ but often this is a very ‘particular ‘generous’ interpretation of that term.
For instance, the book “Time to Think” by Hannah Barnes is a damning indictment of institutional and clinical failure at GIDS and The Tavistock & Portman Trust, documenting at best problematic but more likely unethical and damaging practices on children, driven at least partly by an agenda that excluded alternative approaches. This is now used by the people who responded to my story as ‘evidence’ that Trans- is a myth, and anyone in the medical establishment who disagrees is a danger to children.
They seek out the things they abhor.
I have narrowed my Twitter Universe over time to professional cycling, film and marketing strategy types. I want to read and post positively, sharing ideas and experiences – especially about topics I love with other people who share that passion.
The Trans-deniers I encountered seem to actively immerse themselves in stories and news that will offend and outrage them, exactly as Rachel Cooke described. They’re not looking for uplift or inspiration, but validation that they must continue to be vigilant and angry. They rarely seem to post original opinions, almost entirely retweeting or replying to what other people have said. They only discovered me because they follow Kirstie Allsopp, whom they mostly despise. It’s an endless cycle of outrage, shock, anger and attack. It must be exhausting to exist in such a constant heightened state of almost existential fear and threat created by the very posts with which they choose to fill their news feeds.
Anyone who disagrees becomes an enemy target.
Anything short of complete rejection would imply an acceptance of the concept that some people can be Trans-, so everything I said was challenged, ridiculed and attacked. Every response referred to ‘she’ when I’d clearly stated ‘they’. They were absolutely and utterly convinced they knew that I was wrong, deluded, cruel, and dangerous. There was no way anything I said could be true, and I needed to be shot down and shut up.
I know that these insults are far less serious than many people face every day on social media platforms. But even these ‘mild’ jibes would be unacceptable in our schools or workplaces; the offenders would be taken to one side and reminded about values, mutual respect and courtesy. But Twitter operates in a parallel universe where that social contract does not apply. I did report a couple of the more direct messages to Twitter, but apparently they didn’t break any of their codes of conduct. If I don’t like the people calling me ‘pure evil’ or ‘child abuser’, I can block them, while they can carry on attacking any number of other people in the same way.
Let’s get the Hell out of Dodge…
And so I have shut down my Twitter account for good. I have no intention or desire to offer Elon Musk and his platform any of my time or energy when it actively condones that sort of behaviour. I Reckon Twitter is worse than other platforms, because while I can choose my friends and whom I follow, it’s much easier and faster to see a whole lot more content on Twitter than I’d like. It’s very hard to control what you see and don’t see.
I will lose a lot; just in the few days since the weekend and deciding to close my account, I’ve had great interactions and chat about cycling and films, but I know I will gain a lot more; time, for one thing. All that cycling bantz takes time, especially when there are races on. I’ll also gain calm. I’ll not miss the sinking feeling of resignation anytime I see J K Rowling or Glinner or Eddie Izzard trending, knowing what’s behind that link; a cess-pool of rage and hyperbole.
I’m not judging people who want to keep using Twitter for the ‘right’ reasons. And I know that most / all(?) social media platforms have their problems, but this to me is just about how we treat each other. Twitter doesn’t give the first sh*t about how people behave, in fact I Reckon it revels in it. It knows that offence provokes outrage, that negative news evokes stronger responses than being nice.
I like people being nice. I believe in nice.
I want to leave those bigots behind, because they can deny our non-binary child and millions like them with all their spite and fear, but they continue to exist, and thrive, and make our world better for their presence.